We had a bright orange magic box that was connected to a beige windows 95 box that you were never allowed to turn off because nobody knew if it would survive a reboot and there was no software for the orange box for a more modern setup. Almost felt an like arcane ritual, typing in the command lines to get it to work.
Have you tried volleyball? Its extremely fun and being tall helps a lot.
Punctuality. Putting things away after using them. Remembering where I put my phone after putting it down in front of me one second ago. Calling you on your birthday. Opening my Mail and responding to it.
Took me 25 years to recognize I had ADHD. 
On a lighter note: Chess. Hate that fucking game. Makes me feel stupid everytime I look at a board. Everything is fine and suddenly your queen is hanging and your opponent gives you a smug look, as in “did you really miss that?”.
GeForce 3 Ti 200.
Combined with a athlon xp 1800+ and blistering 512 MB DDR Ram I was simply TEARING through Warcraft 3 and Half Life. Thanks mom.
Also, the technical limitations and specifications of each console gave the games a distinct look. You can tell a SNES from a Genesis game, a PS1 from a N64. Even just game ports had their own charme, differing sometimes less, sometimes wildly between each console.
It all converged in the PS2 era and now it’s just differently branded PCs.
Of course. He’s not genetically evil. Essentialism is bad. He grew up in the most cold hearted, disgusting, bourgeois circumstances at the heart of capital and just kept going with it.
It’s in fact another damning argument against capitalism and patriarchy. It produces evil in people as a byproduct.
Eradication is really hard. If you just kill mosquitoes in a certain area, what’s gonna stop them from coming back? You’re just not gonna get all of them.
This way you introduce a mutation that can actually propagate through the gene pool, disabling the undesired trait for future generations. It’s also highly selective, so that you don’t accidentally get rid of other species or poison an area with pesticides.
Also living beings have no “purpose”. They fill an evolutionary niche and shape the ecological system around them. The piss off us, so we play a little god, but nature has no opinions or morals whatsoever.
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I just want to stop feeling so bad but i know it’s because i still haven’t properly moved on. It doesn’t help that they told me there was a possibility of rekindling it but i know that’s not the right choice for either of us and I really don’t want a FWB type situation either.
The fact that you don’t give in to this, is a great sign of moving on. You’re not blinded by desire or false hope. Your brain understands and your heart will follow. It’s just a little more inert.
There’s always something that reminds me of them every day whether it be a bench we sat on, a gift, song, food, etc you get the idea.
The biggest cry I had after a breakup was a month after I she left me. I was walking home at night and something reminded me of us walking the same way and I just stopped and cried sitting on a wall for 30 minutes or so. It hurt so much but now I know, that this was pure catharsis. I’ve tried to fight the sadness, “get over it”, move on, not feel bad anymore. But what I needed was to bawl my eyes out until they burnt with snot spread all over my jacket. And when I was done I was okay.
Embrace it. You’re alive and you loved and this what you get for that. It will pass, no matter what you do, but until then it’s yours.
The only real advice i got is to listen to your favorite sad songs a lot and to take an hour long shower until your brain had dissolved in the mist and your skin is almost peeling off.
Disco Elysium took me three tries over three years to finish. I always knew I liked it, but I had to find the right moment in time for it to grip me. The music, the vibe, the art… But soo much reading.
Same with Dark Souls, same with Outer Wilds. All three are now among my favourite games of all time.
If it’s not for you, it’s perfectly fine. But some pieces of art are good because they are not the instant dopamine delivery method. I played vampire survivors for like 6 hours straight and never touched it again. I’ll always think about Harry and Kim.
And yes, if you have ADHD, give it a try medicated. We always chase the dopamine and that sometimes blinds us to slower paced, more rewarding joy.
Thesis: ANarchism
Antithesis: brat
Synthesis: bratAN
Gwondolier, Conspictor of Fartflames non-stop 35-attack-combo is a little much, but I think after the last three days I’m getting the hang of it.
2 weeks ago CrowdStrike was just permanently taking up 30% of my CPU and kept my laptop running on maximum fan power. Apparently also due to a faulty update. Holy fuck, what is that company doing. And why is apparently everywhere?
Half my company is shut down. Laptops crash into blue screens after bios post and probably need to be wiped. Gotta love Microsoft. Exceptional customer service.
The stock indices have reached new records after every single crash . Because capitalism must grow. Line must go up. Because if line go down, the whole promise of return of investment goes out of the window and the thing collapses. Any money you put in the market as a whole (ETFs), will be worth more in the future than it is now. But it has to be money that you don’t need to rely on in the next 15-20 years, so it’s exclusively for people who are rich already.
Everything else, like picking a single stock like those GameStop idiots, is just straight up gambling. Betting on horse racing is equally as productive.
When I was younger I thought being able to drink a lot was a good thing.
Turns out, consuming more of the poison that destroys your guts and liver to get into the desired state of mind is actually bad.
On the other hand, I’m usually the one getting drunk people home safely, so thats nice.
The only thing that would follow one billion Americans is zero Americans, on account of the ocean being turned into boiling acid in like 3 years.
Critical support to your dad. The horny Anne Frank album is not exactly what I would call driving music.
I’m sure you can just consolidate all the people called Mike into a single guy with the “Duplicate Entry” function.
First off: Congratulations on getting diagnosed. It’s a huge step and 18 is a really nice timing. Untreated ADHD in adults can be really crippling, because all the supporting structures like school and family break away and suddenly you realize that managing your own time schedule and house hold is really fucking hard. So good job 👍
Second: You took 30 mg of Elvanse/LDX for the first time and you felt nothing? That’s… impressive, honestly. Methylphenidate Non Responder are fairly known, but usually that amount of dexamphetamine does something to the human body. From your age I’d guess you are not a regular user of recreational amphetamines and have built a massive tolerance…
I also started with 30 mg Elvanse and was pretty seriously zoned in, deep focus, elevated mood, highly awake, loss of appetite and a very revelatory feeling, that I could finally tackle all the bullshit that I had avoided, delayed, ignored and forgotten. For me, the 30 mg were honestly too much. Over the last year I’ve built a tolerance and am now taking 40-70mg daily, depending on the challenges of the day.
Still I wouldn’t worry. No effect also means no bad side effects. Adjusting the dosage is entirely normal in the beginning and something your psychiatrist should do anyway. The therapeutic dosage goes up to 70 mg and there are edge cases with even higher doses. There is also methylphenidate (Ritalin, MPH, etc) and Atomotexetin. But for now, just stick with what you got.
Dealing with ADHD is a marathon, not a sprint. You’ve just started, so take the days as they come and trust your feelings above all else. If it works, you’ll know. And if not keep at it.
Also check out /c/neurodiverse, there are a lot of good posts and ADHD experiences shared.